Sunday, October 16, 2011

It Happens

Today i am feeling SAD, Upset, angry and .......I dont know...
My kido and hubby is asking what happen to you.....Did we did something to make u angry?
No! Then Why am I Upset? I dont know!!!
Am I angry on someone?
Am I annoyed of someone?
Am I Upset of something?
I want answere........
I am feeling horrible, restless, as if, I did something wrong!
As if, I betrayed someone!
As if I left someone behind! Whom I should be with!!!
Actually Breathless.......
Why? I don't know
It is late night, rainy outside and dark in my heart....
The best place I felt at this time is near window........
Generally, I don't open that window, a nice sitting place is there.....
Cold wind touched my skin and I felt as if it touched me within, slowly-slowly it reached my heart, embraced it, which was feeling dark.
And all of sudden it lighten up.
I closed my eyes and felt as if, I am flying in wind and met the lost friend...
Yes, I realised, the one I betrayed is "me".
The one who always helped me to perform my duties as mother, wife, friend, professional and many more characters, I forgot her.....
In performing my duties I just keep on expecting form her and gave her nothing in return.
Today, when she got tired and sick...I cant do a single thing...
I am nothing without her......and I forgot her?
But now onwards.....I will do my best to keep her happy, cheer her up, do things she like...and always hold her hand where ever I go....I will stop if she is tired....
Today I commit to Myself as well.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

"SUICIDE" Act of a weak moment.

Today, I got a bad news.

Suicide of a person with his daughter, whom i knew.
This is a shaking news.

What have had happened to him,
which made him took such hard step,
Harder, taking his daughter with him?
Should I address him as a killer or a weak father.

It take a moment to end a life

"Suicide", Act of a weak moment.
A moment when a person think, that his world came to an end,
When he don't have the courage to live with the current situations,
When he thinks, that for his loved ones material things are more important than him,
When he think there is no one, who love him, no one who bother for him,

May be this is the strongest reason of all, which act as a catalyst in a weak moment, to take the hardest decision.
Because every human being want to be loved and cared by our loved ones.

What a tragedy of life that, a person's world consist of few peoples, and at times, it become so difficult to get loved by those people.

Is this can be solution of all problems?

I think, a person do such kind of thing when he/she lost his thinking power.

I pray to God, even at worse situation nobody could lose his/her thinking capacity.

Thursday, January 6, 2011


As a grown up it is so easy to define.
But still to everybody it has different meaning.
some people think good looks is beauty,
for some beauty is fair color and long hairs,
for some beauty is being attractive even without sharp features or fair color,
for some, it is attitude.

But what a kid think of a beauty?

When i was a kid, and some one claim, she is beautiful.
I use to stare that girl and try to find out, what is beauty?
she also have two eyea, one nose, two ears etc.
What is so diffrent, to be beautiful?
i use to ask everybody what does beautiful means.

even now some times i dont understand, What does beauty mean to a particular person.

But i think it is more depend on liking to someone, their nature, their behavior to others, their attitude to carry themselves etc.
Does good looks, fair color and slim figure is beauty?

Oh god!!!!!!!!!

Still it is difficult to answer.

Can anyone help me????????