FEAR

Now a days i started feeling fear atsome corner of my heart all the time.
Life taught me enough that "One get what he deserve not less than that not more than that" this is the ultimate truth of life.
But we keep on fighting for betterment,
We keep on fighting to make life good,
To achieve all our dreams,
To accomplish what want,
But we reach there, there starts a "fear of losing"
Losing the loved ones,
Fear that anything can happens,
Each and every moment trying to get over it.
Now I realise how brave the womens are who sen their son or husband to war.
May be I am getting a little over protective.

Q & Happiness

Sometimes I found a strong correlation between questions and Happiness.

It feels like when there are clouds of sorrow there are so many questions.

Where as when there is light of happiness everything seems perfect.

No flaws, No worries, No tension.

But occassionally light fades and again come the clouds of sorrow waiting for a ray
of hope to clear those clouds and bring in the light of happiness.

This is Life.

WANTS AND HAPPINESS

Sometimes I dont understand what is this all for?
Why we run all the time behind "MATERIAL THINGS"?
Why is this "Greed"?
OR why it is always that we have everything we need, but not what we want?
Even if that is not so big, may be just emotions, no money need to buy that.

THEN?
Why always there is something which human complain?
Why we always lack something to make others happy?
Why we always complain even after others put all the efforts they can, to make us happy?
May be because we evaluate others from our eyes and others always do what they think is right rather than finding out what their loved ones want?
What make that person happy?

The whole emotional drama is for happiness,
We put efforts everyday but remain unsuccessful.
I think te whole game is of
EMOTION
CARE
LOVE
BUT, all one gets is criticism for NOT being
EMOTIONAL
CARING
LOVING.
Is this true? if everyone carves for the same?
Questions are so much and answer are none.

It Happens

Today i am feeling SAD, Upset, angry and .......I dont know...
My kido and hubby is asking what happen to you.....Did we did something to make u angry?
No! Then Why am I Upset? I dont know!!!
Am I angry on someone?
Am I annoyed of someone?
Am I Upset of something?
I want answere........
I am feeling horrible, restless, as if, I did something wrong!
As if, I betrayed someone!
As if I left someone behind! Whom I should be with!!!
Actually Breathless.......
Why? I don't know
It is late night, rainy outside and dark in my heart....
The best place I felt at this time is near window........
Generally, I don't open that window, a nice sitting place is there.....
Cold wind touched my skin and I felt as if it touched me within, slowly-slowly it reached my heart, embraced it, which was feeling dark.
And all of sudden it lighten up.
I closed my eyes and felt as if, I am flying in wind and met the lost friend...
Yes, I realised, the one I betrayed is "me".
The one who always helped me to perform my duties as mother, wife, friend, professional and many more characters, I forgot her.....
In performing my duties I just keep on expecting form her and gave her nothing in return.
Today, when she got tired and sick...I cant do a single thing...
I am nothing without her......and I forgot her?
But now onwards.....I will do my best to keep her happy, cheer her up, do things she like...and always hold her hand where ever I go....I will stop if she is tired....
Today I commit to Myself as well.

"SUICIDE" Act of a weak moment.

Today, I got a bad news.

Suicide of a person with his daughter, whom i knew.
This is a shaking news.

What have had happened to him,
which made him took such hard step,
Harder, taking his daughter with him?
Should I address him as a killer or a weak father.

It take a moment to end a life

"Suicide", Act of a weak moment.
A moment when a person think, that his world came to an end,
When he don't have the courage to live with the current situations,
When he thinks, that for his loved ones material things are more important than him,
When he think there is no one, who love him, no one who bother for him,

May be this is the strongest reason of all, which act as a catalyst in a weak moment, to take the hardest decision.
Because every human being want to be loved and cared by our loved ones.

What a tragedy of life that, a person's world consist of few peoples, and at times, it become so difficult to get loved by those people.

Is this can be solution of all problems?

I think, a person do such kind of thing when he/she lost his thinking power.

I pray to God, even at worse situation nobody could lose his/her thinking capacity.

BEAUTY!!! WHAT IS IT?

As a grown up it is so easy to define.
But still to everybody it has different meaning.
some people think good looks is beauty,
for some beauty is fair color and long hairs,
for some beauty is being attractive even without sharp features or fair color,
for some, it is attitude.

But what a kid think of a beauty?

When i was a kid, and some one claim, she is beautiful.
I use to stare that girl and try to find out, what is beauty?
she also have two eyea, one nose, two ears etc.
What is so diffrent, to be beautiful?
i use to ask everybody what does beautiful means.

even now some times i dont understand, What does beauty mean to a particular person.

But i think it is more depend on liking to someone, their nature, their behavior to others, their attitude to carry themselves etc.
Does good looks, fair color and slim figure is beauty?

Oh god!!!!!!!!!

Still it is difficult to answer.

Can anyone help me????????

Bribe or Warnig

It use to be normal practice of parents to either Bribe their children or warn them to do or not do something.

Hey!!!! I am not complaning.

I had always observed parents, to avoid the hazzels at particular time, they agree to what ever kids say be it choclate, toys etc. Is it right?

After sometime parents start complaing that kids don't listen to us.
Tell me who is reponsible for that.

A 3 month kid starts understanding things.

Initially, parents think they are young and understand with time, But kids start understanding how they can make parents do what they want and so is the result.

Instead we can understand what is the kids passion and use that as a tool.

so they will feel special instead of dejected, and also ur work go on.

I do the same but diffrently.

My kido love the song Azeemo shan sehansha.
She say it "chemo shan sehensha" and crazy for it (thanks to all the people.
I dont need to bribe her for choclates instead for the song that,
" if u obey me i will play the song",
" and if i need to warn, I will not play it"
Smart na.

And second colors

ya, that's correct, she loves coloring. so the second bribe is color book and colors.

So u must be thinking, "what a lucky mom!"

Kids and Manners!!! Possible?

Kids @#
Imposibleeeeeee
Sometimes, at public place, they makes us feel as we had'nt taught them manners at all.
And sometimes, as if they are more mannered then us.
Something like that also happen with me. (Pity on me)

At the cake shop,
We bought pastries (she love it)
When we finished (she was not finished), I suggested lets move, and spontaneously she interupted,

Jhota chod kar jayenge kya? (as if complaning)
App to bole the na the jhota nahi chodte?

I was shocked! everybody was listening to her.
I replied, car mein finish kar lena?
she replied angrily (as if saying apko itna bhi nahi pata),
chalte chalte khana achi baat hoti hai kya?

I thought it is better to let her finish.

Then she noticed the empty cup in my hand and said,
"Mammy kachra dustbin mein dalthe hain. Apka hai na jao dal kar aoo."
I stood up angrily thinking, thanks for teaching me manners.

When she was stuffed, (1/4 th pastry was left)
She said, " mammy bacche cake nahi khate".

Every body end up laughing.
And I can't resist sharing it with you.

Three year old now

Kids !!!
Oh god !!
At times Amazing,
Other moment interesting,
The very next moment , sooooo irritating ( so many questions, sometimes, so logical but difficult to answer)
And then, suddenly so lovely and talkative,
Great Charmer,
Time just flew away with them.

I don't know about all the kids.
I think every parents feel that their kids are angels but by the age of three,
They end up yelling and punishing them all the time.
For sure I also yell and punish her but some time and not all.
She is three now .
Of course, she make noise, naughty and once promised, it must be fulfilled.
May be this is the reason she cooperate, because she knew,
She will get great rewards.

Always reward your kids for their good,
And sometime, let them have what they want ( chocolates, toys, etc.) with a smile(and without saying no apparently).
You will see a lovely smile on your kid's face which you always want to capture for ever.
You will be so fulfilled and wish, the moment should stop to live it to the fullest.
you will definitely see the long term effect of it.
Believe me!!
I experimented it.
It really works.

That's all folk

Did these words remind you of something?Think!!!
Oh no, you can't forget @#
Try once again.
Got it !
Ofcourse,
Tom and Jerry
Mickey mouse
Donald duck and so many.

Do remember watching all those cartoons which make no sense but still fun.
How about trying it now.

Just forget about the inflation and see tom running behind jerry.
Just forget what BCCI and Modi are doing and see how brave choota bheem is.
Just forget the project report to be finished, and watch Balganesha.

These day were there are always deadline, meetings and project reports.
Got tired of it na.
Get a escape for sometime and watch cartoons.

You will be in the new world which says "THAT'S ALL FOLKS".

Who is Strong?

I wonder why this society give preference to man.
His Dreams (what ever it is)
His feelings (Even is does no justice to others)
His thinking ( Even if it is incorrect)
But he is the leader, the only reason because he is strong.
" STRONG" - Really?
Does it mean emotional strength too?
I don't think so.
Because emotionally they are not as strong as a women.
Every time they need someone around them to share there problem and tensions.
Unlike a women who deals with her part of problems on her own and still ready to share the problems of the male community as much as she can, be, he is her father, brother, husband or a friend.
At the same time when she need their support, the same male community raise finger on her.
If she weakens on one of her duties, she get the sentence of incapable of fullfilling the responsibilities.
In most of cases a man so easily moves for another lady support.
Again he can't survive without support than how is he strong.
It is well said, " Behind every successful man there is a Women".
Also behind every successful women there is a man but in a negative way.

KARMA CHAKRA

Every religion speaks the same thing
Rewards or sufferings are the result of our own karma chakra.

I think it is true bcoz everybody's struggle, pain, suffering, rewards etc. are differrent from the other person, and karma Chakra can be the only reason for it. I don't think anything else can justify it.

But I wonder how this circle started?

Every religion and guru says about moksha as the ultimate goal of a soul. But I have another question, How a soul is formed?
When it got started?
How a soul got caught in the vicious circle of Karma Chakra?
What was the souls first act, when it steped in this circle?
Ultimate goal is moksha but, Where it came from?

I wonder who taught this world about that?

When I was a kid, I wonder how this earth formed?
Who were the firsts human being?
Although science answer that, but still there are some questions unanswered!!!

This Karma chakra so vicious and complex. A chakraview
Like Abhimanu, we know how to get in, But we need to be like Arjun,
we have to learn to come out of it too.

I am Sorry

Today after a long time I came to my best friends - Kagaz n Kalam.

I know, both of you are angry at me.
I took a long break, but I am sorry, I was so busy.
But today I want to be with you again, because you are my true friends.
No body else understands me better than you do. Thanks and promise me to be with me always.

U know I don’t have a specific thought today to talk about with you.
Instead, so many thoughts flowing in my mind which I am unable to line up.
I know, this is bcoz both of you are punishing me for being with you after a long time.

Plz plz plz forgive me this time.
I can't forget how you have stand by me on my tough moment,
Promise me to be the same for ever.
Thank you

Aim of Life

Do you ever thought, What is the aim of a person's life?

Sometimes I wonder where are we heading ?

What we want?

What we want to achieve?

Confused!!!

You must be thinking what rubbish!!!

I know what I want.

May be true.

But did u ever gave a thought what next, ONCE your aim if fullfilled?

According to you the answer is simple,

Let me achieve this first and then I will think next.

But wait a minute, give a thought to it………………..

What is aim of your life?

For an average Indian, education and a reputed job.

When that is achieved, what next?

For sometime a person get absorbed completely by his/her achievement.

But after sometime, the person want something more to carve for, so got married.

And now a completely new aim set, earn for family, make them happy.

But this won't seem enough, then again there is silence in life which need a baby to be filled with and life goes on like that.

I remember an episode of Alladin (cartoon series by disney), Where Alladin and princess came across a captain who travel in a cruise in the air, searching for a whale who have treasure in its body .

With great effort, they catch her. But then the captain realize that, to catch the whale is aim of his life. So he release her again, to give his life reason to live for.

In simple language, aim is the reason to live. Someone have big and other small.

But everybody have one, which is a reason in the form of blood in the body of Life.

So, what is your Aim? Be it small but have one.

Vision of Life - Colors

Today is "Holi", the festival of "colors".

So many colors.

White, blue, green, orange, yellow, purple, RED!!!

But do you ever thought of what are the meanings of colors in a person's life!!!

Lets take the color RED it is symbol of

Love

Passion

Marriage (सुहाग)

On the other way, it is also symbol of

Anger

Blood

Danger

Destruction

The color is one but vision is different.

Life's personal experience is what, which create vision of life ,

Every thing has two phase constructive of distructive.

Nobody is self responsible for its vision, there are situations, surroundings, family and …..

We can just hope that every one should have the constructive vision of life with lots of colors.

Everything Happens for Good

I have always been a firm believer of EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR GOOD.

And from time to time fate proved me correct.

I think in everybody's life it happens,

what is required is vision to see that, the glass is half full and not half empty. Person who see glass is half full can always learn from what happened and move on. And the person who only see glass as half empty always stick up in a place and can not fight for the betterment.

I know so many people argue how can this happen? If u fell down in a pathway, then how can it is good. But it is good. Because you learn keep your eyes on the pathway also so that you should not fell down from where u can not come out. One suffering always make u cautious of another , also make u brave to be prepared if u miss it.

If someone betrayed your trust, then also it is your fault, because u don't know whom to trust and whom not, Learn from it.

Learn whom you should trust and whom u should rely.

Don't give anybody next, the chance to betray you. So the glass is half full.

Always there is a way out for everything. Just keep your eyes open and the door will open.

Learn from your mistakes and move on. It is Life

It is a personal experience.

The game of name - Pleasing

In the Marathon of Name, the torch of Pleasing is in the Hand.
A person, always trying to please eveybody around,
Try to be great by sacrificing his own happiness for the well being of other (Ridiculous),
Try to be superior by caring for other(Foolishness),
Try to be weight lifter by shouldering the burden of others(Rubbish).
But pleasing is like Whitewashing a house.
Untill you keep doing things what others like, people forget how much you sacrifice for them.
Like after a while there is a layer of dust settled at the wall, which again needs white washing.
It means in order to please others keep on putting the oil of sacrifices in the torch of Pleasing.
But in this Marathon, nobody ever won, sooner or later,
The participant is left tired in the Midway,
In complete darkness because the oil of the torch is exhausted completely,
In the utter suffering of loneliness and meanness of the peoples,
And the most amazing fact is that, peoples are those whom a person thinks are my whole world
At the end, a person combeled to think, "why I did all that?"
I read somewhere " It is good to earn a bad name and live a good life than earn a good name and live a Bad life"
True na!!!

Aaj Main Badi Ho Gayi

My little angel is Two year old now

She grew up in a cute, beautiful, intelligent , hard working, Loving and most important CARING.

You might be thinking what are the words I am using for her are too big for the age of her, but she deserve it.

CUTE - Because it is god gifted to her,

BEAUTIFUL - As I described,

INTELLIGENT - She is a fast learner, any thing once told will be saved in the memory bank with definition and process and any deviation from it will not be allowed. Then she will say -

बोली न इसको ऐसे नहीं करते हैं, मम्मी ने बोली थी, हांsssssssss

HARDWORKING - She like doing her work on her own, like putting her utensils to wash basins, cloths on place, shoes on place and also help me in my work as much as she can. When I say no, she replies,

"आज मैं बड़ी हो गयी" and if she is unable to do something, she comes to me and say

"मम्मी आप कर दो न मैं अभी छोटी हूँ|"

LOVING and CARING - While I do my work, she come to me and say, "मैं आपकी HELP करूं"

A small incidence took place

I was sleeping and she was playing, I slept without taking my blanket.

After 5 min she came and spread her blanket (Her blanket is very important to her because she can sleep without me but not her blanket) over me, without thinking what I wil have.

I was so touched, that how much she love and care for me that she has given me her most precious thing of life. And thought came to mind

"आज तू सच में बड़ी हो गई"

Naam - Ek Pehchan ya???????

Some one said , नाम में क्या रखा है?

And instantly the thought came to my mind is, "Everything".

Do you ever thought what is the impact of name in someone's personality and Life?

I think like few things which are decided by God and not we, name is also one among that.

Slowly person's thinking, behavior, character bear the characterstics of it name.

"NAME" - which create an instant picture of a person in stranger's mind.

A picture which is very much inspired by the characterstics of the name of the person.

At times it is positive and at times negative.

It help to give person, a beginning.

And good beginning leads to work half done.

The whole run in the world is for name sake.

A person can fulfill his necessity easily but, he keep on running to establish his name in the society.

This marathon race does not ends with the establishment of the name.

The next stage is to add fame with the name.

And then to maintain it to the height.

The passion for the fame make a man blind and deaf, that neither he can see the pain nor listen to the heart of those who are supporting him in this endless marathon race.

Sometimes I wonder - WHY? THIS ENDLESS AND HOPELESS MARATHON.

Why a person cant stop bothering about his name and society, instead think about the happiness of the near and dear one. Don't ask them to sacrifice their wishes for name sake.

Imagine - How beautiful this world will be without the NAME factor.

But it can't happen because NAME is EVERYHTING

Are You Newly Engaged?

Surprised? Why this lady always have Quesiton?

Because Life is a search for answer of Questions, So many questions.

So, here comes the next.

Actually right now there are newly engaged couples around me.

Living in the clouds of dreams,

So happy,

So much in Love,

It seems as if made for each other,

Can see only good things.

As if , were waiting for so many births to meet each other.

LOVE IS ON AIR

Have you ever thought, why the heart felt that way after engagement?

The Heart, which always waiting for true love, all of sudden feel like the search is over, as if the picture of the beloved is complete now.

Heart, which is like a "wild horse", unable to control, free, strong, want to wander as per his own will, whom more you want to control, more it will rebel.

Heart, whose nature is rebeltion, When there use to be restriction, that time also it can't be controlled, then, think what happen when the wild horse is free.

God!!!

It will get crazzzzy with happiness,

Run in any direction without restriction,

Will talk with air and clouds, unable to land on Earth.

Keep on running till unable to give sufficient air to the lungs.

It is same with the Heart.

But hold on!

Don't let it run till its last breath, otherwise Life and marriage will lose its charm.

Let it pick up speed, but with steadiness, so the horse can run long race and not a short one.

Keep mind open with heart because heart won't have mind.

ALL THE BEST.